Posts

Fiction, June Gemmell

/in


The Homecoming

She stood in front of the old house and breathed it in. The summer breeze lifted the dust from the warm pavement, ruffled the bushes at the front door with its fingers. The windows seemed different now, darker, empty of life. But the front garden looked broadly the same, just more tired. Overgrown shrubs framed the lawn, untidy limbs spilling out in all directions.

She hadn’t been here since the the clearing out of her mother’s furniture and belongings. The boxes of photographs, assorted cheap jewellery and tea sets still lay untouched in her garage two hundred miles to the south. She had selected one photograph from the box, her favourite, and put it into a silver frame. It was of her mother as a young woman wearing her new summer dress and a homemade daisy chain, hair windblown and eyes squinting into the sunlight. 

Someone else lived here now. She didn’t want to trespass, but no one seemed to be around. The driveway sat empty of cars. Someone was sawing in a distant garage, and she could hear the murmur of a lawnmower further up the street. 

The first paving slab on the path was still split in two and she traced the line with her toe. A parched little geranium at the front door tipped its head to the side and stared at her sadly. She raised her eyes to the windows again. The curtains were different, alien. Unfamiliar ceramic cats sat on the windowsill.

On summer days she had sat on this doorstep, mixing rose petals with water and sugar in jam jars, making perfume. On winter days she had kicked snow off her boots against the top step, fingers numb. Her mother would be there with a hot cocoa to grasp between freezing hands. Her mother was always there, for scraped knees, cut fingers, and later, wiping away tears when boys broke her teenage heart. 

She had no memory of her father. He had left before she was two, and he was never spoken of afterwards. For her whole childhood it was just her and her mother. 

For a moment she thought she saw movement at the window, and she caught her breath, but it was just the reflection of clouds scudding across the blue sky. No sound came from the house, no shuffle of slippers up the hallway, no call of a voice. 

On either side, the neighbouring gardens were altered, fences pulled down, walls put up, driveways pushed into front gardens. She wondered if any of the ghosts of the long gone neighbours were still there, looking out of their windows, watching her. 

She hadn’t been here much in her mother’s later years. Mainly because she lived so far away. She should have phoned more often, she knew, but after she moved, her mother was more sullen over the phone. She would give short, clipped answers to her questions, always giving the impression that there was something else she would rather be doing. And at the end… well she hadn’t made it up from Manchester in time. She swallowed hard at the memory. She should have left earlier, but there were things to be organised at work.

Her mother had died as she drove over the border. The hospital phoned. She sat in the lay-by for a long time, not sure how she felt, not sure what to do next. 

In the end she had driven to the hospital to see her mother who was serene, but absent. She felt she should say something, but what? Goodbye? She couldn’t break the silence in the death room with words. None were sufficient or appropriate. 

The next week was spent in activity, funeral preparation, lawyer’s meetings. She arranged for the house to be cleared except for the few boxes she took home with her. 

She walked up the side of the house. The old lilac bush had seen better days. It still pushed out a few isolated blooms here and there between the bare twigs. She held back from pressing a blossom to her face. She was worried the remembered fragrance would be missing, or not the same. But the flowers reached out as she passed, and brushed her arm. 

Like a thief, she padded round to the back. She remembered the ping and echo her footsteps used to make in the small narrow space between the two high walls. She breathed in the air, as if the same air would still be there after all these years. She did feel in a strange way that something of the small child she had been was left here. And she searched, in vain, for a sense of her mother. 

The washing line between the two concrete posts was gone, replaced by a modern whirlygig hung with striped towels, spinning in the drying wind. There was a new garden hut, a scattering of colourful plastic toys across the lawn, and a swing with a shiny aluminium frame and a red seat. 

She knew that her mother hadn’t come to terms with her move to England, but it was where the work was. She ran her fingers along the ridged plastic seat of the swing. She seated herself on it and scanned the back windows for signs of life. Nothing moved.

Slowly, slowly she moved her legs to and fro. Higher and higher she swung with flushed cheeks and hair blown backwards and forwards, above the fences and hedges. She laughed aloud. Just at that moment she pictured a dark haired woman hanging out the washing, sheets flapping on a summer day. The woman bent down to pick up a peg and a small child encircled her neck with a daisy chain. They exchanged a smile and the mother kissed her forehead. 

Her sob caught in her throat. She whispered something but the sounds were fragile and got lost in the air. Then, louder over the fences and treetops she called out ‘Sorry’.

June Gemmell writes short stories and flash fiction. She is a reader for Fractured Lit. Her words have been published by Frazzled Lit, Trash Cat Lit, Moonlit Getaway, Gutter Magazine, Northern Gravy, Hooghly Review, Gone Lawn, and The Phare. She is working on her first collection of short stories.

Two poems, Yuan Changming

/in


To depart (free haiku)

Means to move along with sunlight

& leave your shadow longer & longer

Behind, or the other way around



The Chinese Spirit: a Mythological Review 

    Unlike your legendary Alexander the Great 

None of us has come to conquer; nor are we 

To be conquered (even by God), let alone any

Human artifacts or behaviours, including science 

And tech blockades & tariffs. Rather, as Confucius 

Has taught us, we always avoid talking of strange 

Phenomena, feats of strength, disorder or sprits

Whereas we do worship our

Ancestors, especially those never accepting defeat

Such as the ever stubborn Houyi who persisted 

In shooting down all the nine extra suns as they

Made the world too hot; the determined  

Xingtian who soldiered on long after his head

Was chopped off; the old Mr. Fool who must

Remove the mountain blocking his way rather 

Than relocating his cottage; the simple-minded 

Jingwei who kept filling the East Sea with twigs

Where she was drowned; the devoted Dayu trying

To contain the Flood instead of escaping from

It in an ark as did your Noah, (so cute & creative) 

Yuan Changming co-edits Poetry Pacific with Allen Yuan. Writing credits include 12 Pushcart nominations for poetry and 3 for fiction besides appearances in Best of the Best Canadian Poetry (2008-17) and 2149 other publications worldwide. A poetry juror for Canada’s 44th National Magazine Awards, Yuan began to write prose in 2022, his hybrid novel DETACHING, ‘silver romance’ THE TUNER and short story collection FLASHBACKS available at Amazon.  

Flash fiction, Kyla Houbolt

/in


Generation

Like this:

There will be snow, abundant and thick, the branches of huge firs bowed down with its weight. Beneath such a canopy one can find a small room roofed by icy white and crisp green needles. She crawls in there and leans against the trunk for a minute to catch her breath. It is not quite as cold as you might think but still she rests for a little while and then gently, with no force at all, she exhales from her open mouth a prolonged sigh, the vapor crystallizing instantly, and as her breath turns to ice clouds, shapes begin to coalesce, large and furred with the slightly greyed white they need for camouflage, and one by one as she breathes out, they step away from the small room until seven or eight have gathered. Then as a pack they bound forth from that place into invisibility, the forest swallowing them whole.

They will have everything they need. She has seen to it. No other magic is required. Not by the wolves, and not by us.

Later, if you were to look there you’d see she is gone–leaving only her own large paw prints on the snow.

Kyla Houbolt is a poet and gardener living in North Carolina, USA. Her full length collection, Becoming Altar, is forthcoming from Subpress Collective in the fall of 2025. https://www.kylahoubolt.us/index.html

Flash fiction, Monica Dickson

/in


How to make a living coffin

  • Place hemp fibre in a mould along with mycelium, the root structure of mushrooms, the recyclers of nature. 
  • Put aside thoughts of how you could never get your kids to eat mushrooms and now you never will.
  • Lie down in the mould to check you have the correct size. 
  • Try to imagine you are stretching out for a long afternoon nap, in a giant cot. Resist the urge to fall asleep immediately. Climb out again.
  • Be patient. Just get on with it. Keep calm and carry on. Your coffin will be ready in less than a week. You don’t need to understand the science. 
  • Think about the coffin as your baby, think about it when you wake up and when you go to sleep. 
  • On the seventh day, fill the coffin with moss. Make it nice and squishy. This is your final resting place. Climb back into the coffin.
  • Wear something biodegradable, not that synthetic blouse you wear to the office, the one that clings to you, static and sweaty, the one that makes you feel like you’re wearing a costume.
  • Think of damp, shady places, think of that afternoon at the Beck when you forgot to take a blanket, when you sat on the dank earth and watched your kids fight over the rope swing, while you worried about childhood accidents, about unanswered emails, about unfulfilled dreams, about people you’d lost touch with, about haemorrhoids. 
  • Allow the putrefaction process to neutralize the toxins in your body. Enrich the soil with your disappointments and failures, your paralysing fears, your pointless, petty ruminations. 
  • Consider the fact that in the US alone they use enough wood, steel and concrete every year to build a tower of coffins the size of the Empire State Building. Ponder how many traditional coffins it would take to build the IKEA just off Junction 27 on the M62.
  • Imagine being a Compostable Mushroom Coffin Inventor and what a cool job title that would be.
  • Recall all those meetings you sat through, where people talked about thinking outside the box. Feel glad that you can still think of a pun, even under these circumstances.
  • Contemplate how easy it would be to break out of this coffin before you start to turn into decayed organic matter, compost to compost, mulch to mulch.
  • Ask yourself, where do you see yourself in 5 years’ time? and although you still have no idea what the answer is, realise it does not involve being eaten by insects, earthworms, beetles, or centipedes.
  • Miss your kids. Miss your friends. Miss the things you haven’t done yet. Miss the rocks and the hard places. Dig deep. 
  • Remember this coffin is alive. Notice how the moss gives beneath your weight, then how quickly it springs back as you push yourself to standing. 
  • Hear the soothing voice of your yoga instructor, perhaps after making an imperceptible adjustment to your posture, asking, Different feeling now?
  • Laugh. Loudly, wildly. And don’t cover your mouth. 
  • Whisper to yourself, to the trees and the stars, to the network of fungal threads that support you: Yes. Yes. Yes. 

Monica Dickson writes flash fiction and (longer) short stories. Her work has been published in Anti-Heroin Chic, jmww, Splonk, X-R-A-Y and elsewhere online, as well as in various print journals and anthologies. Her story ‘Receipts’ was selected for the inaugural Best British and Irish Flash Fiction award (BIFFY50). She won the 2019 Northern Short Story Festival Flash Fiction Slam and is a graduate of the Northern Short Story Festival Academy. More at writingandthelike.wordpress.com and @mondickson.bsky.social

Micro fiction, Elizabeth Rosen

/in

Endeavor

He looked away sadly, picking at the seam of his hospital gown. “I thought it was something I might be good at.” 

I knew what he meant. I had a memory of holding his hand as a boy while our daddy told us we’d always be failures. 

That was the time after I’d been benched for the season, but between us later there would be hunting trips with no blooding, carpentry that resulted in wonky structures, creative writing classes that yielded no poetry, auto-tech training foiled by an aversion to dirty hands, marriages foiled by an inability to share.

I’d remember those things my brother tried later, after he jumped.

Elizabeth Rosen (she/her) is a native New Orleanian and a transplant to small-town Pennsylvania. She misses gulf oysters and Southern ghost stories, but has become appreciative of snow and colorful scarves. Colorwise, she’s an autumn. She still wants her MTV. Her stories have appeared in places such as North American Review, Baltimore Review, Pithead Chapel, Flash Frog, and New Flash Fiction Review.  Learn more at www.thewritelifeliz.com.

Poetry, Toni della Fata

/in



Baby, are you a believer?

I don’t believe in God anymore.

But I believe in foxes, standing on the hood of my neighbour’s 2024 Toyota, 

in blood moons in the dead heat of summer,

in gravestones with handwritten notes taped to the marble, spelled incorrectly in a foreign language,

in crumpled birthday cards and sun-stained photos in a shoebox underneath my mattress. 

“Ci vediamo,” see you soon, I remember telling myself, 

at the foot of your bed, 

the mausoleum,

the pier,

at an apartment in Montreal’s east-end.

I believe in the text messages you sent me, 

in the accidental photo you took of yourself in the hospital, 

they sit undeleted, like cremated ashes on my phone.

“Don’t remember me like this,” you said in broken English, because you wanted me to understand,

I promised that I wouldn’t but of course that was a lie. 

I believe in the clock reaching half past noon, one April afternoon, sitting in my high-school’s music room, dread creeping like a morning glory up my throat.

I believe in early spring sadness, budding with the daffodils in the ditch off the cemetery’s main road.

I believe we’ll always be tethered together, your electric pulse in mine,


Though I spent years fighting it, 

I close my eyes,

Watch our images,

 blur,

overlap,

collapse.

Maybe if I can’t believe in God, I can at least believe in You. 

Toni della Fata is a lesbian writer based in Toronto, Canada. She is a professional daydreamer, whose work focuses on the fringes between fiction and reality. When she isn’t writing, Toni can be found in a nearby stream counting fish or somewhere on the coast collecting sea shells. 

Flash fiction, Kendra Cardin

/in


A Change In The Recipe

Maddie stands barefoot in a kitchen cluttered with crumpled newspaper and piles of halfway unpacked cardboard boxes, arranging a ring of devil’s food cake donuts onto her mom’s antique glass cake stand.

From a fresh dozen she selects the plain glazed next, placing them one after another atop the devil’s food. Layer upon layer, she stacks, alternating flavors before crowning her pyramid with her favorite, a sprinkled vanilla.

When she was little, Maddie always helped her mom make the cake for Maddie’s birthday. Nose and cheeks powdered white with flour. Lips smeared with cocoa—the evidence of a stealthily snatched spatula licked clean.

She loved cracking the eggs best. The pop that sounded when she knocked them against the edge of the bowl. The satisfying crinkle when she pulled the halves apart. Clean breaks didn’t come easy, though. No matter how careful Maddie was, a few jagged pieces of shell always slid into the mix. But her mom was right beside her, to make sure the sharp bits didn’t stick.

Every year, they followed the same recipe. A classic yellow two-layer round cake, frosted with store-bought chocolate fudge icing. Bedazzled by Maddie with a heaping sprinkling of rainbow nonpareils. And every year, after the kitchen was scrubbed clean and the plates were set for serving, Maddie made the same wish.

Eyes squeezed tight, she’d sit at the dining room table, holding her breath, anxiously waiting for her parents to finish singing Happy Birthday. Mom smiling soft and reassuring. Dad wearing his fair-weather grin.

Maddie’s birthday was one of the few predictably sunny days of the year, along with Thanksgiving and Christmas. Free from the eggshells she and her mom were so used to walking on around the house. As the smoke from the burning candles curlicued above her cake, Maddie would hope that this year, yes, this year, her wish would come true.

Maddie steps back, admiring the tower of fried dough. The memories of those days melt away when her mom walks into the kitchen, the last moving box tucked under her arm. An easy, bright smile thriving on her face.

August’s warm breeze sneaks in through the cracked open doorway of their townhouse. Maddie pokes thirteen candles into her sweet creation, strikes a match. She cups her hand around the flame to keep it burning steady, and takes a deep breath, looking forward to the wish that comes next.

Kendra Cardin creates a safe harbor for herself with poetry and storytelling. Her writings have been featured in a variety of publications including those of Rough Diamond Poetry, Sídhe Press, Blink-Ink, Little Thoughts Press, and Black Bough Poetry.

Creative non-fiction, Megan Hanlon

/in


Only Way Out Is Through

It’s so dark inside this tunnel. 

I can see my hand in front of my face, sometimes my feet on the gravelly path, but not much else. I have a thin flashlight that casts a short yellow beam – no wider than my palm – that I rarely use. It’s a holy halo and the battery is growing weak. Besides, everything before me looks the same as everything behind. 

This tunnel smells like cold stone and damp, and under that the sharp odor of iron rusting at the edges. Sometimes I catch whiffs of smoke or the scent of sunshine on hair during a spring day. But maybe that’s my wishful imagination.

It’s chilly in here, too. A damp cold that grabs my bones and doesn’t let go, no matter what temperature my gooseflesh is. Sleeves cover my arms and long pants shield my legs, but they provide little warmth. I wish I had known to dress for it. My hands and toes are frosty.

I’ve been walking in here for a very long time now. Broad, fast strides for the first month, I was eager to get to the end they told me would be there. Then, drained of my determination and sick for distraction, I slowed and tried to make a game of stepping only on every other wooden tie. It’s a bit of a stretch though, and took more energy than I had to give, so I gave up after a few weeks. 

Then I thought I’d walk balance-beam style upon a rail, flexing and pointing my cold fingers and toes like a gymnast simply to do something different. But I lost my balance, slipped, and turned an ankle on the dismount. The swelling and limp slowed me further, but I didn’t stop. 

Now I walk without fanfare or fortitude, just slow and steady. Like a running a marathon on a treadmill, like moving because I can’t think of any other option.

It’s lonely in this tunnel, with only my too-familiar voice. I have tried singing to keep myself company, but the notes are absorbed into the walls in a way that reminds me of small fists beating on an unmoved, muscular chest. I think my ears are playing tricks on me, too, because sometimes I hear the sound of a wooden flute as I trudge along, like something out of a movie soundtrack about a sinking ship, or maybe like the resonant baritones in a Tori Amos song about damage. 

On the darkest days, my whole body thinks it senses the path rumble very slightly. Like the first Midwestern earthquake I felt – just enough to make me wonder if it really happened, and look to others to confirm my suspicions. But there are no others here, only me, a dying flashlight, and the weight of my thoughts on this track.  

The light at the end of the tunnel started out invisible, and I moved by hope alone. Slowly, during all this walking, it has grown from a pinprick to the size of a quarter. I am making progress, even if it is slight.
I don’t care what’s at the end of the tunnel anymore. I’m just tired of being inside.

Megan Hanlon is a podcast producer who sometimes writes. Her words have appeared in The Forge, Gordon Square Review, Reckon Review, South Florida Poetry Journal, Variant Literature, Cowboy Jamboree, and more. Her blog, Sugar Pig, is equal parts tragedy and comedy. SOCIALS @sugarpigblog on FB, X, Bluesky WEB http://sugar-pig.blogspot.com

Flash fiction, Josh Dale

/in

All right, here it goes

Alright, here goes. You’re not doing this for the LOLs anymore. You’ve seen how they do it in the movies, the specific cuts, and gory effects. It’s a lot different than that. Now it is time for you to make the choice. It’s a lot colder here than you think. And I know it’s scary, and you got that itch, and you want to scratch it raw and bleeding, and you know that’s not great for anyone, especially those who find you first. Instead, we’re going to try this. Think of all of the other moments that are simultaneously happening. Retreat into your mind palace, your hurt locker, whatever the fuck you wanna call it. At this point, it’s a lot of static and a little cancerous in spots. Think about those good ones, yeah, like all the times you navigated through life’s unexpected and devastating traumas. But also, all of the high points, the limelight, the fluttering euphoria in your chest. The last time you felt more like a furnace than a corpse. That’s right—no, don’t go backward. No more negativity! This is supposed to be a positive reinforcement exercise. You need to fantasize about putting a tourniquet around that bleeding heart. Ok, practice now, just leave it be—that’s it, good. Remember, you’re not scratching it, and it’s gonna get a lot cooler than you imagine. Continue being that way—you’re doing yourself a massive favor. You learned over time that scabs are a sign of healing unless interrupted prematurely. Your whole life has been a scab healing. It’s alright. It will fall off, and the pink raw flesh below will be sensitive at first. You can’t be afraid of scarring—it builds character. See? You don’t even feel itchy anymore! Go ahead, take that breath you’ve been holding in all this time. Your future self has earned this moment and all the ones that come after. Now, close your eyes and rest. You’re doing this for the Zzz’s now. You’ll awaken a rejuvenated, scabless person. Agree? Alright, here goes.

Josh Dale is a native Pennsylvanian. Introduce your cats to death metal. Read more at www.joshdale.co and most social media @jdalewrites

Flash Fiction, Monica Dickson

/in

Friday

In the future, Marie will reinvent herself. But first she will disappear to have the baby. Then she will reappear to sit her exams, the baby safely delivered by her mother to a nice family that Marie will never meet, in a city she will never visit. She will get a place at Uni to study law, then she will use her natural talent for winning an argument to train as a barrister. She will drink too much. She will smoke too much. She will quit smoking. She will join a gym. One day she will write to Robert, the baby’s father, and she will tell him how well she is doing and how she hopes they did the right thing for all of them, and he will treasure the letter, but he will not write back. Marie will think about the child, and how and who they are, but she will only allow herself to do this for an allotted half-hour, every Friday, after work and before dinner.

In the future, Robert will sell insurance. But first he will party his way through an extended adolescence that lasts long into his third decade. He will drink and do drugs with a commitment bordering on a qualification. He will stop drinking and doing drugs when one of his friends has a stroke. He will barrel through a string of co-dependent relationships – with women who will cook and clean and care for him, until his tearful, late-night self-examinations become too difficult a form of mothering. When he finds himself alone, he will read and re-read the letter from Marie. He will keep the letter in a hanging file marked Miscellaneous and he will think about the child – now an adult – and how and who they are, and he will think about having a drink, but he won’t.

In the future, Theresa will watch as Marie’s star rises. She will congratulate herself on making the right decision. She will tell her friends how happy her daughter is, how she drinks cocktails with high-flying clients, how she stays in the best hotels. She will sometimes think about the baby’s tiny foot in Marie’s hand, just a child herself; the argument Marie couldn’t win. One day, Theresa will write to the adoption agency and she will ask them to pass on another letter, from her, to the child – who will always be a child in her mind – but Theresa will be told, kindly and efficiently, that it is not allowed under the terms of the non-contact agreement they made all those years ago. 

In the future, when Theresa dies, Marie will clear her house. She will break this task down into manageable timescales: Monday to Thursday, for half an hour, after work and before dinner. One day, Marie will find a sealed envelope, addressed, in her mother’s handwriting, to a person she doesn’t know. She will think about opening it, but she won’t. She will take the letter home, she will file it under Health – general, she will pour herself a large glass of wine and she will look forward to Friday.

Monica Dickson writes flash fiction and (longer) short stories. Her work has been published in Anti-Heroin Chic, jmww, Splonk, X-R-A-Y and elsewhere online, as well as in various print journals and anthologies. Her story ‘Receipts’ was selected for the inaugural Best British and Irish Flash Fiction award (BIFFY50). She won the 2019 Northern Short Story Festival Flash Fiction Slam and is a graduate of the Northern Short Story Festival Academy. More at writingandthelike.wordpress.com and @mondickson.bsky.social

Three poems, Joshua Walker

/in


If It Still Hurts, It Means You’re Awake

That’s the rule. The rest is metaphor.

Your heart- a pit viper curled in a shoe.

Your breath- a coin flipped into a dry well.

Your name – an echo

that winces when it’s called.

If it still hurts, maybe you outlived the ritual.

Maybe the smoke didn’t take.

Maybe your ribs learned

to sing without permission.

Once, your doctor asked if you heard voices.

You said: only when they need something.

He smiled like that meant “no.”

If it still hurts,

it might be the prayer decomposing.

It might be God peeling your name

off his tongue like a scab.

It might be

you,

again,

asking to be known

and bleeding when you’re not.


You Were Born With Your Hands Full:

A splinter of moon,

a dead wasp,

your grandfather’s last breath.

You’ve never known how to be empty.

Even now

you carry pills,

lost buttons,

a girl’s hair from a bus seat in 2011

you never got to return.

Grief taught you balance.

Joy taught you guilt.

Your shoulders forgot

how to drop.

Once you told someone

you couldn’t cry anymore.

They said:

Then let the salt come through your palms.

You dig holes in the dirt

just to watch them stay open.

You believe in silence.

But not the kind

that forgives.


The Mouth Remembers Before the Mind

The salt of her skin,

the word you swallowed

so hard it grew teeth.

Your tongue is a reliquary.

There are prayers lodged

in your molars.

One cracks every time

you lie about being okay.

Sometimes you dream

of bees nested in your throat,

buzzing secrets your body

never agreed to keep.

You speak in thorns now.

You call it healing.

You call it poetry.

You call it

not dying.

Your mother’s voice

was the first ghost

to take up space in you.

You were seven.

You still are.

You wake with a taste

you can’t place

a little iron,

a little mercy,

a little god.

Joshua Walker is a poet and storyteller, also known as The Last Bard. His work explores memory, identity, and the fragile beauty of survival amid hardship. Drawing on personal experience with mental illness and a deep love for myth and lyricism, Joshua crafts poems that are raw, intimate, and unflinchingly honest. He shares his voice widely on social media and continues to build a community of readers and fellow seekers.

Bluesky@bigjosh84 Insta/threads@bigjosh84thelastbard

Flash fiction, Vijayalakshmi Sridhar

/in

I heard you became a father again

A son this third time. Here. Take a laddoo. It is from your favourite shop. Jalaram’s. Motichoor. Not the Besan laddoo that you upturned a plateful during our third year Diwali celebration, leaving floury bits all around, like a bomb explosion. That day my heart sank at your disrespect.        

There she is – your second wife. Here. Feed her a laddoo. She needs to be lauded. For producing a heir. For helping you shed your skin as my husband, the cover for all the love shared for thirteen years. You said I must learn from her, by drinking her urine, borrowing and sleeping on her pillow to absorb lessons on how to be a ‘good’ wife. 

Where is your mother – the evil goddess who held your dubious honour aloft? Has she ever played any role other than being a yes-woman, refusing to see my side? You’d say I planted the bone of contention in the first place. In your eyes, she is infallible and tolerated all my mistakes too. You owe her for today. Celebrate with a laddoo.

Why am I at your son’s naming ceremony with a box of laddoo? Why laddoo? Because by its shape it represents the universe. The fried flour pearls are the human lives; the sugar syrup is the love that is supposed to give the binding. Fried cashews and raisins are the good and bad tidings and the cloves- those spicy bits are the real deal. They are the tests for love. 

Fine, don’t buy all this. Don’t fret about guilt and conscience, duty or the failure of it or the energy exchange that has happened all these years in the give and take between you and me, just come forward. Take a laddoo. 

Come on, take one; Make a move. 

Vijayalakshmi Sridhar is a writer of features and fiction in Chennai, a coastal city in South India.  

Fiction, Travis Flatt

/in


Say: “There’s a Dragon, Camel Boy!”

“Watch out, King Arthur, there is, there is…” my son, Jay, says. He stands teetering on stage in his little burlap robe, his Merlin costume, swinging his arms and shuffling his feet. He looks to the side of the stage where his kindergarten teacher, Miss Katie, sits smiling in an honest-to-God director’s chair. She mouths something, but my son only furrows his brow, looks out at us parents, and scrunches his face. His mouth and chin are obscured by the cotton ball beard his mom, my Ex, made for him. His eyes are huge and I worry that underneath his lips are quivering. 

At home, during my weeks with him, he and I practiced his lines. He’s only got three of them. He’s supposed to warn Rylee Faulk, who plays King Arthur, that there’s a dragon protecting the sword in the stone. Not part of the legend, but they’re only six. 

The parents titter in the silence.

Rylee Faulk, in her cardboard armor and Burger King crown shouts. “Say: ‘There’s a dragon,’ Camel Boy!” 

Gasps from the parents. Miss Katie hops up from her director’s chair. My Ex, seated at the far end of my row, stands and makes a choked outraged sound alarmingly close to a death rattle. 

Rylee’s mom, in the third row, stands and says, “Oh my God. I’m so sorry darling.” (Whether “darling” refers to my son or my Ex, I’m unsure.)

At the beginning of the school year, Miss Katie texted all parents to warn/admonish that students were mocking my boy’s cleft lip. His scar divides the flesh between his nose and upper lip, which puffs out below either nostril. This engendered “Camel Boy.” A plastic surgeon in Nashville said he’ll fix it once he’s older.  

My son raises his wizard staff, a large piece of brown construction paper rolled into a cylinder, shoulder high, then levels it at Rylee to hurl like a spear and says, “Die, Pants!” 

(There was another incident where Rylee had an accident, wet her pants on the playground, followed by a similar email to the parents.)

Unphazed, Rylee readies her sword, also construction paper, only more elaborate in, well, construction.  

Jay throws. Rylee effortlessly bats the spear aside with a twirling parry. Some parents actually cheer. 

Saying, “No, no, no—children, this is not how we [something inaudible],” Miss Katie charges into the fray but skids to a halt. Rylee and Jay cross and grasp each other in a bear hug, giggling, squealing. 

My son, I know, has an enormous crush on Rylee. She’s all he talks about. My Ex, in our “updates on Jay” chats during drop off exchanges—which are generally the two highlights of my month (the chats are)—insists our kid is too young for a crush. But I had crushes at his age.

At the smattering of applause, Rylee and Jay bow. Miss Katie steps forward and insists they finish the show. 

Two of Jay’s friends push on a wooden backdrop, a mural of a green dragon coiled around a gold hilted sword. The quality of the painting far outstrips the costumes, the props, and the other backdrops, which were made/painted by the kids. The dragon was the work of Miss Katie. Our printer paper handbills, mock programs with bios for each little actor and stagehand, concludes with a page-long bio of Miss Katie, who apparently earned a technical theater MFA at UT Knoxville. 

The final scene is supposed to be Rylee alone, though Jay remains onstage holding her hand. Rylee, after proclaiming “Have at thee” whacks the dragon painting, then—although she already has a sword—kneels in front of what one assumes is Excalibur. 

A blackout, the show’s only light cue, and lights up on Rylee and Jay appearing to contemplate a first kiss. Again, Miss Katie rushes in, this time making it, and grabs their hands. She raises them, which earns an enthusiastic, if confused, second applause.

In the elementary school’s lobby—White Plains is K-6th—we parents mill about congratulating one another and one another’s children. I find my Ex and say “What the fuck was that?” a little too loud. 

“Right?” she says. 

“The sword thing was cool,” I say. “The kid’s got a future in that.” (I don’t know what “that” is, but this is how most of our conversations go.) 

“I guess,” says my Ex. “Nice dragon.” 

Rylee’s mom shoulders through the small, needlessly congested crowd and apologizes for the “Camel Boy” thing. 

Jay rushes between the three of us and announces that he and Rylee are “betrothed”—his words—then demands someone take them out for ice cream to celebrate. Rylee’s mom and Jay wander off to join the crowd-within-crowd praising Rylee. 

Tonight is supposed to be my Ex’s handoff of Jay to me. It’s now the two of us alone. “Ice cream?” I say.

My Ex stands frowning, looks back and forth from me and Jay, says, sharp and sarcastic, mocking,“Are you asking me out?” But looks instantly, deeply embarrassed. We both flush. We both teeter on the tile of the lobby. We sway, swinging our arms, and shuffling our feet. Look off into the wings.   

Travis Flatt (he/him) is an epileptic teacher living in Cookeville, Tennessee. His stories appear in Fractured, Variant Lit, Prime Number, Gone Lawn, and other places. He enjoys theater, dogs, and theatrical dogs, often with his wife and son. @WriterLeeFlatt (Twitter/X) @travisflatt.bsky.social Travis Flatt, Author (Facebook)

Fiction, Josh Dale

/in


Taking Care of Business

So, I go to Aisle 3 to grab whatever my wife instructed me to get. What was it? The, uh…organic canned beans? Some paprika spice medley? 5 pounds of pork loin? Maybe not in that order, but she’s the boss of the kitchen, and I’ve mastered pattern recognition. But look! A bumbling imbecile of a husband needs some entertainment. I turn the corner and see this badass display. Cans of Monster are stacked as tall as the shelves. Bundles of Doritos and Lays chips fill the area around the base of Coke and Dr. Pepper 12-packs. Two young men are wearing the company’s drab attire, plus an older gentleman in a button-up shirt and a clipboard. I reckon the store manager. In my experience, they can be austere assholes! So, get this. The one employee is up on a 6-foot ladder, and the other is handing him cans, right? This manager, with his graying combover, cracks some loose Monsters and launches them into the air. Both catch; neither spills a drop. They cheer. Crazy! 


This all happens at 10:00 AM, which is important to the story. A certain song was playing on the speakers. “Takin’ Care of Business.” Big with the Boomers, but it’s a bop, not going to lie to you. Anyway, the manager starts to boogie. He’s dancing around, flipping the clipboard over his head, and smacking the boxes of cans. Metallic thuds galore. What a performer! “Hey, boss,” the ladder guy says. “Why do you always play this song at 10 AM?” The manager exhales and wipes some sweat off his brow. “Devote one hour a day to taking care of business, and it can change your life. My ex-wife remembers this song well. No cucumbers were harmed!” The employees laugh so hard. They look barely out of high school. I take it they haven’t a clue what marriage is like. The moment passes, shoppers move along, and the trio stays. The titular song overhead ends, and the weekly sales advertisement rings out. The employees and their manager survey their creation, much like artists do. From my perspective, it looks like a fireball. Hell yeah, I can see it. Taking care of business, fellas! 


I finish up my shopping and visit the sole cashier. An older woman sits on a stool with a fancy badge. 10 years? Wow, that’s dedication! She coughs and shakes when the belt moves with my food. She was nodding off. Oops! I asked her about the music at 10 AM. She looks past me to a faraway place and giggles. Her forehead wrinkles like she’s recounting memories. The blip of the scanner keeps a steady beat. “His wife was the produce manager when he hired me. Ah, how he took a liking to me. They were arguing, and she called out, so I covered the produce department. One thing led to another, and we made love in the prep room. The goosebumps when that chorus kicked in…” She leans close to me. I’m bewildered, hearing this story frothing out of this woman’s mouth. “I regret nothing. This badge on my shirt outlasted their marriage. I still dream of his eggplant every so often.” I make that awkward smile where your eyes squint and your lips look like a worm. “Keep your business to yourself, now, ya hear? Have a lovely day.” She hands me the receipt, and I go on my way. The pictures in my head start flooding in. How many pieces of vegetables did they use in that affair? My groceries felt heavy in my arms, in the car, and in the house.


I open the door and wowzah, it smells so damn good! My wife is in a blitz preparing for the family reunion. Pots bubbling. Skillets sizzling. Emeril and Gordon: start blushing. She’s so good. She skirts around my lumbering ass, and I plop the bags on the island. I can smell the sweat on the back of her neck. Yummy. “Hey, babe, eyes up,” she commands me. A spatula in hand, she rattles off directions. “Dump the beans on the top right pot. 2 tablespoons of paprika. Get the pork on foil. Light oil. My auntie is coming in thirty minutes to help.” Now, the jester appears. I unpack the groceries and goddammit! Nothing she asked for is there! I look ready for a Super Bowl party instead of a curated family event. I start stammering, and it makes my wife pause. Among the chaos, she surveys the incorrect groceries. Her thick, black eyebrows narrow. She inhales deeply, sighs. “Ah, honey. It happened again?” I don’t know what to say, so I crack a Monster and guzzle some down. Liquid courage! “I was distracted by the fireball display, the guys building it, the taking care of business song, and the manager’s tryst with the cashier, the produce manager divorced him, and—” She struts toward me and puts a buttery finger to my lips. Zesty. Her chestnut eyes are stabbing me. “It’s alright. You may be a village idiot, but you’re my village idiot.” She removes her finger from my lips, and I salivate. I see that vein in her neck, just millimeters below her olive skin. It’s pulsing with anger. I want to lift her on the counter and suck on her neck like a hungry baby. I bet she tastes like rosemary. But yo, I’m a big dumb mutt in a man’s body and I’m on the clock! My wife, without skipping a beat, unsheathes a knife from the scabbard with one hand and hurls a tomato in the air with the other. She slices the thing in half in the blink of an eye. The two halves plop onto the cutting board, all gory. She’s a ninja, I swear! She smirks as I backpedal. “Good boy. You finish the job now, you hear?” I nod my head like a metalhead at a concert and bolt out the fucking door…

Josh Dale is a native Pennsylvanian. Introduce your cats to death metal. Read more at www.joshdale.co and most social media @jdalewrites

Micro, Colin James

/in

Pork butt salad

Thought about stealing Amazon packages off doorsteps  to generate some extra income, but all of my generous neighborshave cameras with speakers, sometimes having long conversations with me from across the street. A bit nerve wracking what with all the questions they ask. Amazing what one normalizes. I haven’t reconsidered attending the Abominable Absurdism Reunion, still pretty firm on that. Then there are the watchdog animals behind electric fences that run at me aggressively and suddenly stop. Pretty sure their vocal chords have been removed cause when I stop for a little chat they just groan. The stabled horses are doing much better. The arses that sit atop them call to me imaginatively in various degrees of missionary undress. I have a beat-up but clean van that might pass for an emergency vehicle, inclusive or exclusive at a moments notice. Uniforms I don’t aspire to but then again, if they could help get me in why not? I’m game.

Colin James has a couple of chapbooks of poetry published. Dreams Of The Really Annoying from Writing Knights Press and A Thoroughness Not Deprived of Absurdity from Piski’s Porch Press and a book of poems, Resisting Probability, from Sagging Meniscus Press. He lives in Massachusetts.

Poetry, Todd Matson

/in

Author/Artist Todd Matson is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist in North Carolina, United States.  His poetry has been published Feminine Collective, San Antonio Review, The Brussels Review, and featured in Poetry for Mental Health.  He has also written lyrics for songs recorded by several contemporary Christian music artists, including Brent Lamb, Connie Scott and The Gaither Vocal Band.

Flash fiction, Denise Bayes

/in


Goddess

Before she came, there was only darkness. Unremitting night surrounded, moonless. Their limbs shrank, conserving energy within their bodies like bulbs sheltering in winter soil.

And then she dropped into their midst. One of them caught sight of her in the woods, a bright sphere of light, illuminating the world. They stared at her from the grey shadows. They watched the warmth of her smile that radiated light into dank corners of the forest. Her fingers stretched wide, leaking flashes of brightness into their world. 
They turned to each other, shaking their heads in puzzlement.

Could they trust her lightness?
A few of the braver ones began to move towards her. As they tiptoed closer, their bodies shivered as brightness began to pulse through their limbs. An unfamiliar energy photosynthesised their veins. As their pinprick pupils began to adjust to the glare, they shrugged off the frowns of the dark years. Etiolated limbs began to stretch and lengthen in her powerful rays.
Then she began to speak and her maple-syrup sweet voice reached them. She spoke of love and happiness, filling the woods with the beauty of words. Soon the reluctant ones drew closer, taking slow steps towards the new world, she had revealed. There was joy in their faces. They formed songs with their new vocabulary and smiled in her presence, shrugged off the old world.
One morning, she was gone.

The people halted, fearful of the past returning as they gazed into the void she had left. They waited in silence for the darkness to return.
But as they turned towards each other, they saw light throbbing through each of them.

Denise Bayes has been published in NZ Micro Madness, Free Flash Fiction, Oxford Flash,100 Word Story, Ellipsis Zine, Firewords ,Roi Fainéant press and the recent NFFD Anthology. Originally from Sunderland, Denise lives in Barcelona, Spain where she lives with her husband and a lively cavalier puppy called Rory. Bluesky @deniseb.bsky.social

Poetry, Peter Gutierrez

/in


Afterparty

There were tides inside, lap-rolling and full of swimmings with and

Against the waves, lagoons of shifting plastic, and seabirds fighting

With the shore birds fighting with the waterfowl, intarsial contrails

Of diving, flying over, falling into. Nearly every morning she awakens

Only partly, the slosh of dreams and the chilled saltiness of reality

Staggering her back into jumbled half-action.

The clear light and the unclear, and how the two of them liked to switch

Between the two.

The clear undercuts the unclear, which is fun in a jungle

Sort of way—you never knew what phenomena you’d encounter in the fog.

Focus on breath in, hate out.

Breath in, hate out.

Janus felt the negative leave his core, or

At least decided that’s how he’d describe it

Later.

Breath in, hate out.

Or should that be breathe? He hated those online

folks who didn’t grasp the difference. (Spells & spellings.)

In any case: in through the twins, observing thoughts

As they froth and ferment. Then: out through the lips,

Fumigating the caverns of contempt in the digestive knowledge

Management system.

Distantly, a jet plane quiet-thundering through the clouds;

On the next block, a Sonata slides by, its tread smooth and humming.

He could sit here and listen to the dawn-sounds, the sound-

Makers afar and invisible, and be happified for the rest of his

Life, he mused.

His wife, Eleanor, enjoyed a different pathway into the light:

Influenced by an influencer, she went out each dawning before

Anything else. Barely dressed, barefoot or flip-flopping along, 

Ellie followed the notion of forcing undesired action into being,

Doing that which she didn’t want to do to skill her mind into

Facing the unknown; specifically, the rest of the unraveling day.

As a strategy, this swelled and broke like an egg. Those summer

Mornings in Maryland, inches past daybreak, and she could feel 

The hint of heat, the tingly precursors of rain, the immediate world

Still coated in night’s silences. This emergent love of the pale,

Creeping minutes in a pale and creeping hour derailed the project

(As happens sometimes). Later, a post she drafted explained it,  

How what she’d avoided became what she desired, and undid all

The wisdom of the shift. Yet also brought the amor fati peace that

Newsreel chatter, sparkly cocktails, party favors, and elbow-brushings

Had failed to.    

Her husband, whose name is likely Janus, was, is, and will be

Ever unaware of the sutured joinings of her Buddha nature. 

Peter Gutierrez is a poet and writer with work in Bruiser, Exist Otherwise, Not One of Us, and Lxminxl; his books include the story collection From Bad to Worse and the novella The Trees Melt Like Candles. You can find him online @suddenlyquiet.

Poetry, Ben Nardolilli

/in


Waiting behind

Tonight’s stars are a bunch of people pleasers

Shining brighter than ever

And bringing out all the favorite constellations in a row

I stay inside with my lights on, blocking it out

I have no desire for their show

We do not deserve to look away from earth, not now

Ben Nardolilli is a theoretical MFA candidate at Long Island University. His work has appeared in Perigee Magazine, Door Is a Jar, The Delmarva Review, Red Fez, The Oklahoma Review, Quail Bell Magazine, and Slab. Follow his publishing journey at mirrorsponge.blogspot.com.